When I was young I remember it started at the age of four years old. He started his abuse by making me rub his genitals. He would do it down in the cellar of our house. When I got older it was up in his room and down in the cellar. A home shared by my mom, three brothers and three sisters. My mom would tell me to go down to the cellar when my father called me. He would force me to perform oral sex on him while he touched me in ways that no little girl should be touched. I could not get over the feelings of  being dirty and gross. This continued until I left home at seventeen. No one knew what was going on.no one knew that this was happening.  My dad has just passed away and he never even before he died said he was sorry for what he had done to me all those years. I am having a very hard time right now. All those times I was abused and violated are causing me nightmares and I am now unable to sleep much. Because of your story I am now seeking counseling with a trauma therapist with the hope that I can finally begin to heal and put my victimization away in a positive way. I want to live a good life and because of you I know that it is possible with hard work. Thank you