Between the ages of 10 and 11 when I lived in Canada I was raped by an older neighbor repeatedly for about a year. I never told anyone ever and pretended it didn’t happen. I pretended it never happened for so long. I guess I felt guilt and shame and I thought I should have known better.
When I was in rehab as an adult for drugs and alcohol, I connected with this nice therapist and it all came out after 40 years. It was the most painful thing I have ever experienced. And it’s still kind of tough now that I am sober for three years. I am still seeing my therapist but I haven’t finished. Something that she asked me to do was to write a letter forgiving the little child in me because it wasn’t my fault. And one to my rapist, forgiving him also. She says that will set me free forever, but I am very slow. And I am living my sober life day by day, and I can’t seem to sit down and go through that but I know I have to do it.
So my older brother, who was shocked when I told him what happened in my childhood has been helping me out a lot and because of him, I’m writing my story to you now.. He got some bracelets from you and I am wearing one. I am still having a hard time talking to other victims about it.
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